confirmation...

I hope someone will confirm what I'm doing...

but..do I need it?

I know people frequently get lost when facing with a crossing...and I truely believe in I'm quite a problem shooter in this kind of condition.

I mean..I'm a good chooser.

but thing like this is making me annoyed...I get lost on my way whichi is quite a straight road without any turning or crossing...

everything seems ...fine..

no changing, I just need to walk straightly and reach my goal..I can even see the reward waving to me..friends are nice, and my relationship is stable and sweet...

every day, millions of things waiting to be handled with, hundreds of problems waiting to be dealt with... but I don't know what to do...

I'm feeling bored...suddenly with no signs..and up sets followed..discomposure shadows...

something must be wrong...something must be missing...maybe everything! 

I don't understand this case...I can turn to my friends..my boyfriend..they would say"let me help" but how..even me myself can't tell what the problem is...

can people really get lost on a one way road? Or..they just find another direction unconciously?

when we are walking on a clear street without danger, is it really safe? or.. it's dangerous everywhere and no way to hide?

五一假期莫名变成一种折磨~

我关在一个小小的空间里，说不清楚是这间摆了6张床的小房子，还是异常畏缩的内心，还是扭曲的时空~

 

不知道什么时候变的尤其喜欢评论~

批评路人甲穿在衬衫外的BRA，评论路人乙手机传来的120分贝，谈论每栋建筑的感觉，每种天气的潜台词。。。

为什么人要滔滔不绝的对自己以外的东西评头论足？

 

我生病了，感冒，咳嗽，还拉肚子。。。

生病的日子很无聊~

我开始怀疑是不是无聊让我生了病~

 

还做了梦，

短信没吵起来的架，在梦里开了续集~

我们用最古老的方式，写大字报开战~

我说你自大自我自以为是~

你说我敏感神经质还有什么我忘了。。。

你要的是输赢，我笑笑走了。。。不对，我哭着跑了~

我希望我是笑笑走了，BS你的幼稚，可是我却是哭着跑了~真是没出息~

 

梦醒了，

庄周和弗罗依德吵起来~

是我梦到了你的梦还是你的梦梦到了了我？

是我对你现实的不满还是自我意识的过度批判和背叛？

弗罗依德说庄周是做白日梦的傻子，庄周说弗罗依德是BS母亲的疯子~

我则继续病着。。。

 

现实中的我，总是静静的躺着，我可以屏蔽一切信息什么都不看，我可以关掉手机什么都不听，我可以闭上嘴巴什么都不说，我可以病了，什么都不做~

可是我不能象电脑一样按下OFF就全然不知~我不能象磁盘一样FORMAT就全部重来~我不能象程序一样按你怎么写就怎么做~我不能象这GOD DAMN的MSN SPACE一样打一下5秒才出字那么迟钝~

 

我要的幸福，

不是一个人躺在病床上的独角戏~